I guess at least I have a name for this weird thing that I'm feeling.
The pains, the aches, the numbness, soreness .... fatigue... things that make me not be me. Energetic, happy and loving me.
I have become moody, angry, the fact that I'm limited with the exercises I can do now, once I have decided to be back into the fitness routine, makes me angry.
It is not my mind that makes me sit in the couch, right now I have all the wishes and desires to go and workout, to finish that Marathon, to do an Iron girl, and then I get diagnosed with this thing.... the first thing I did was to Google Scleroderma and the pictures nearly killed me.
Will I become a monster? am I going to loose my big lips? will I ever be able to run again? my kids and husband will be embarrassed of me....will I get to look like that?
I guess I should't be so worried now, or should I?
I'm not one to sit and look how sick I'm going to get, I'm planning to fight back!
