Scleroderma??? Now what

I guess at least I have a name for this weird thing that I'm feeling. 

The pains, the aches, the numbness, soreness .... fatigue... things that make me not be me. Energetic, happy and loving me.

I have become moody, angry, the fact that I'm limited with the exercises I can do now, once I have decided to be back into the fitness routine, makes me angry.

It is not my mind that makes me sit in the couch, right now I have all the wishes and desires to go and workout, to finish that Marathon, to do an Iron girl, and then I get diagnosed with this thing.... the first thing I did was to Google Scleroderma and the pictures nearly killed me.

Will I become a monster? am I going to loose my big lips? will I ever be able to run again? my kids and husband will be embarrassed of me....will I get to look like that? 

I guess I should't be so worried now, or should I? 

I'm not one to sit and look how sick I'm going to get, I'm planning to fight back! 

Pain pain go away essential oils blend

I was diagnosed with Lupus about 6 months ago, the pains and aches related to it aren't pleasant.

I have turned to my essential oils, main reason I started on them, I have found that they help ease the pain and here is the list I have come up with.

For the inflammation

the following oils work wonders:

Wintergreen, Copaiba, Vetiver, Nutmeg, Palo santo, Clove, Roman chamomile, peppermint, melaleuca and Idaho blue spruce.

For the chronic pain:

Wintergreen, Helichrysum, clove, peppermint, palo santo, oregano, copaiba, idaho blue spruce, frankincense and vetiver.

From the common oils that I had on hand I made the following pain/inflammation bomb =)

20 drops Peppermint

30 Copaiba

30 Wintergreen

20 Nutmeg

20 Palo santo

I have diluted this on 2Tbsp of liquid coconut oil and voila!  I use a spritzer bottle that works a lot better than a roll on.

I just order vetiver, Roman chamomile and Idaho blue spruce too, this mix has worked wonderfully and I look forward to your experience with it.

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Running the Divas half

Divas half marathon

I'm back! I can run again and I proved it to myself!

I'm amazed by the things your mind talks you out of, every time I have a thought about becoming an athlete, about running a marathon or my new obsession of doing a Triathlon, my mind tries to talk me out of it!

Why do I listen? Why do I allow her to put me down? “You can't do it, you're too fat, you're too slow, you're never going to be good enough....” as my friend Joel said “Delete button with those thoughts”.

I know I can do it, when I first started Crossfit I had the same mind setting “ Oh no, I can't do that” and every time I ended up doing it.... this will be no different.

I've been running here and there since January, with my max running distance of 4 miles on very very good days! You have to start somewhere, I need a race pressure to train so we went to Galveston and it was soooo much fun! I had pain for my shin splints that seem to never go away and was really worried about it, ended up buying another pair of shoes that were different than any other pair I've had... they measured my feet and asked me to buy a size bigger than what I usually buy, that was shocking!

We ran straight till about mile 8, I had pain in the first 2 miles then it went away!

We finished in 2h 52min according to my watch, 2h56 in their clock.... I'm trying hard to remember I'm just starting again, I can not pretend to be in the 2h12min I did my previous half.

I'm giving myself a year …. it will take time, it will take sweat and tears, but I'll become the athlete I never thought I could be... you just watch me do it =)

  We did it!!

Enough inspiration

And that is me in 2013.... both pics on the left.... then that's me 3 weeks ago on the right.

Is that inspiration to loose it enough?

It took a Donut

It took a Donut

Let me start by mention that I'm looking at my daily point allowance like they're money;  you get $26 a day,  you have some extra $49 a week and if you workout then you can start a savings account with the money you make for that.

     Yesterday morning on our way to a 5K my friend asked me to stop by the Donut shop so I did, I was not planning on eating a donut specially after I realized a donut was going to cost me 7 precious points; ain't nobody got points for dat! LOL at the moment we're ordering I felt pressure to get a donut, she convinced me that if I was going to run then I could have a donut, so I bought it =( and I eat it, while I was eating it I knew in every byte I took that I was doing wrong; I don't even like donuts to begin with!

   Later I saw it like a waste of money, hard earned money... now I'll have to borrow money from my weekly allowance account to get me trough the day... if I keep making bad choices I'll find myself in debt, I don't like to use my savings account (activity points) so it's time to stop making the wrong choices.

    Today is a new day, my entire delicious breakfast was 6 points and I was so very happy with it; 2 pieces of toast, scrambled egg whites with egg beaters, half avocado and 2 slices of turkey bacon... all for less than a single donut! Can you believe what a waste of a breakfast I had yesterday? Lesson learned, I'm not doing that again!

Wake up YOU!

WAKE UP YOU

That moment when you realize you're not 26 anymore, not hot anymore... you're becoming invisible to everyone else but yourself.... and what you see ain't pretty! All I see in the mirror is a belly that does not fit in the size 6 clothes hanging in my closet.

That's when it needs to stop! I will NOT buy size 10-12 jeans, no, I will not!

One more time I joined weight watchers... Myfitness pall is not pressure enough for me, looks like I need to pay people to push me to loose weight, just like I do with my running! I have to sign up for a race to get back on track and hit the road.

Last tuesday I went to my first meeting in town, I saw a 65ish year old woman giving the introduction  and I realize I want to become her! I want to be standing in a room encouraging people, I want to be the inspiration I want to be the success story, I don't want to be the one who did not loose the weight, I want to be her, the one who lost it and kept it off.... I did it once and I'll do it again.

My plan?

Log it all, plan my meals and hit the road.